Reflection on today, before making my way into this 5-10 page paper that’s due tomorrow (but I thought it was due Friday…). Anyway: To the reflection! My day started off pretty rough. Stomach was still killing me, and I woke up really late, left late, and only had time to grab a banana for breakfast. Not bad. Wayyy better than nothing. Although I was nodding off during the bus ride to school, I was wide awake for my Econ class; albeit, I was practically dead during my third hour because I was so exhausted, and my stomach was even more so in knots, since my hunger had caught up with me by that time. I drank nothing all day, because I forgot my water bottle at home. So that probably contributed to my exhaustion. I ate school lunch today, which consisted of: a pizza hot pocket(… I think it was pepperoni…), about a half cup of mandarin oranges, a ‘salad’ with a bit of French dressing, and one of those 100 cal Grips packs. All-in-all, I’m guesstimating that the total number of calories was like 500 (anywhere from 400-500, but it’s safer to round up) calories. Then I kicked butt doing Poetry Out Loud, and stayed after to run lights for the Opera… Which I wasn’t even allowed to do today, because my teacher was programing the lights… Anyway, when I got home, I ate my left over Unagi Don, which I’m guessing was anywhere from 300-400 calories, and a banana. Then I ate a mashed banana and 100 cal of peanut butter with cinnamon. Currently trying to drink at least 20oz of water. My room is completely clean, by the way! Awesome~ I was hoping to run today, but I have way too much homework to get done to even sleep. Farewell for now! At least until I get this paper done! Overall a pretty decent day. Total calories so far, excluding fruits and veggies: 1000 cals.
So, I made sure that I ate something for breakfast; however, seeing as I was running late: I only had time to grab a banana. Better than nothing… And certainly better than cookies/junk food.
On another note, my stomach is still recovering from either the bug I had last weekend or food poisoning. Whichever it was: my stomach is in knots, and I need to be extra careful what I put into it: because whatever I ate last night is not doing it for me. Back to bananas, apples, applesauce, and toast! At least until I don’t feel as much pressure in my stomach.
*Gotta steam clean the carpet and vacuum tomorrow, when my mom’s not asleep.
Welcome back!! Looking forward to reading about your journey! You’ve got this! :)
Thank you so much! You have no idea how much I appreciate you reading this, and replying. I know I can do this! I just need a kick in the rear every now and again, otherwise I fall flat on my face :/
I will get all the shit I need to get done: DONE!.
I won’t procrastinate.
I won’t eat crap food.
I’ll eat more apples and bananas.
A lot has come over me in the past couple of months. Whether it’s senioritis, boredom, or perhaps a plague of the mind: I don’t know. Nevertheless, I’m finding my way back here; back to the community; to my followers, that is: if you still even remember me. I’ve found myself having a love of jazzy/pop music recently, which in turn spurred me back on this path. My room is a mess; and it reflects my school life right now: Kind of all over the place. I’ve procrastinated far too long. My first step in remedying this as immediately as possible is the following: I’m going to clean my room (right now) and do my homework… right… after. I weighed myself a couple days ago, and I was back at 198.6lbs. I feel huge right now, and that is not okay. I am giving myself 8 months to lose 53.6 lbs. I need to do this. I need to be successful for a change. It is not okay for me to be overweight, bordering on obesity, any longer. I need to be healthy, and I need to do this for myself. I am sick to death of feeling self-conscious when guys, whom I find attractive, looking at me. I am so tired of being… weak. I hate not being able to wear whatever I think is cute, because I’m 4 sizes bigger than the biggest size. I hate this. I hate being fat. I want to be able to say to someone: “I used to be really overweight!”. I want to be a success story. An inspiration. Starting as soon as I’ve posted this: I will be an inspiration; a success story; an archetype for anyone who needs help losing weight.
Please, please, please message me. Ask me questions. Help keep me accountable. I need all the support and motivation I can get and that you can give. I can’t do this alone.
- Starkist Sesame Ginger Shrimp - 270 Cals
- 2 Clemintines
- 8oz of Honey Crisp Apple Cider :) - 120 Cals
Total: 390 Cals
Today So Far: 715 Cals
Calories Burned Today from exercise: Approx. 358 Cals.
I wound up doing C25K again for a few reasons:
- I ran the first 10 minutes of B210K, and I didn’t feel confident that I would finish.
- If I do C25K one more time, I can improve both my pace and endurance.
- Especially pace;.
I’m going to do week one of C25k continuously, and take a break on Wednesday. Then I’ll do C25k like this:
- Weds: Off
- Thurs: W2D1
- Fri: Week One
- Sat: W2D2
- Sun: Week One
- Mon: W2D3
- Tues: Off
…And so on. Side note: After my run, I ate a Luna Protein Bar (170 cals). Now I’m gonna eat lunch, and take a quick shower.
Running a little behind. Ate breakfast: 155 cals.
‘bout to put my clothes in and run. Weighed myself: 197.6 lbs. Not as bad as I thought. Check in later.